Retire the roller coaster analogy. This bullshit is a storm during hurricane season, a tornado in the midwest. Sucks no matter how you analogize it, though.

The looming storm. Approaching apocalypse. Impending doom, though it’ll never really reach you. Will it? Forever in the distance, But close enough to drench you, Drag you, Overpower you. Gray, no –black. Devoid of everything but full, too full, of everything at the same time. Dull, but as a painful sort of sensation. Jagged edges,Continue reading “Retire the roller coaster analogy. This bullshit is a storm during hurricane season, a tornado in the midwest. Sucks no matter how you analogize it, though.”

i suck at poetry, but sometimes trying to be artsy about this nonsense is the best way to go

  “how do you catch a cloud and pin it down” what a stupid fucking question, a metaphor that doesn’t beg an answer because why would you want to capture nothingness and keep it locked in place? it asks how you can do something impossible, & to that we can either answer “you can’t” or,Continue reading “i suck at poetry, but sometimes trying to be artsy about this nonsense is the best way to go”

Waking up like “how long will it take for the weight of the day ahead to smash me into a bad mood,” and spending time to counteract life’s crap

woke up feeling shitty and anxious and mopey spent lots of time wondering why i felt that way and thinking about confusing shit about how i have to constantly readjust my moods and how i’m literally just unsure of how to do that at this point taking my adhd meds helped because now i canContinue reading “Waking up like “how long will it take for the weight of the day ahead to smash me into a bad mood,” and spending time to counteract life’s crap”

People will criticize your dreams, Layer doubt and uncertainty on your consciousness Because they don’t understand The intensity and ferocity of your fire, With its red passion, Aggressively orange desire, And burning yellow optimism, Your fire, your eternal, internal warmth, With its propensity to spread, to expand. They’ll approach the ladder you’re steadily climbing AndContinue reading

Fighter

You are a fighter which is another word for magically resilient… openly battling an enemy, heart like a fist punching the wind out of opposition however much of it there is. A fighter, you are a threat to life’s struggles, however strong they may be (or seem to be). A force to be reckoned withContinue reading “Fighter”

Morning Affirmations

The sky woke up with a dull, gray covering this morning. And although I usually prefer when dawn chases the night away, forcing it to retreat while purples become pinks become oranges, I’m trying to view this rainy, stormy day as a potential adventure. The heavens are open, life-giving water is pouring into the earth,Continue reading “Morning Affirmations”

Still some fight in me

My car has always been a sort of limbo; I wait here, time passing. I am not patient but still content to stay here listening to classical music (some of which I remember playing, years ago) that reminds me I have a past that was full of pain and torment but also of music andContinue reading “Still some fight in me”

A poem about my daily life that ends far too optimistically, but whatever…

She woke before seven, excitement abundant, still groggy but ready to thrive. She sprang out of bed (or did something like that); it was morning and she was alive! With a handful of pills and a few sips of water, she began with a plea to stay stable. Then came washing and dressing, while countingContinue reading “A poem about my daily life that ends far too optimistically, but whatever…”

Unified Contradictions

“Do I contradict myself? Very well, then I contradict myself, I am large, I contain multitudes.” —Walt Whitman, poet The acknowledgement is certainly true; when you dive into the core of what makes me who I am, you will find more facets than an expertly cut gemstone, each one vast and expansive, so it isContinue reading “Unified Contradictions”