Happy things to appreciate πŸ’™ (updates!)

Random acts of kindness πŸ’• Cloud watching ☁️ Giving something my allπŸ’― The tippytap of my dog’s paws as he comes to me when I call him 🐾❣️ Family!! πŸ‘¨β€πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘§β€πŸ‘§ Fairytales about princesses and castles πŸ°πŸ‘‘ Classic Disney movies Β°OΒ° πŸ“Ό Waking up without an alarm ⏰ πŸŒ… Selfies when I’m really feeling myself 🀳🏻Continue reading “Happy things to appreciate πŸ’™ (updates!)”

How can I know what “normal” is if I’ve never experienced it?

β€œI don’t even know what a normal life would look like,” I sighed, disheartened at the fact that my lack of normal was largely due to my apparent need for drama. I’m bipolar. For close to twelve years, I cycled between deep depressions and wildly irritable, energetic, too-much-in-too-small-a-space hypomanias. It happened every three months likeContinue reading “How can I know what “normal” is if I’ve never experienced it?”

Waking up like “how long will it take for the weight of the day ahead to smash me into a bad mood,” and spending time to counteract life’s crap

woke up feeling shitty and anxious and mopey spent lots of time wondering why i felt that way and thinking about confusing shit about how i have to constantly readjust my moods and how i’m literally just unsure of how to do that at this point taking my adhd meds helped because now i canContinue reading “Waking up like “how long will it take for the weight of the day ahead to smash me into a bad mood,” and spending time to counteract life’s crap”

Rising up from the ash

My insides were rotting with fiery emptiness.Β  A terrifying lack of control stoked the flames along with tenacious sadness. The sadness that had simmered on my internal burner for too long, causing the contents of the pot, the emptiness that filled me, to boil over, eventually turning it into the unmatched heat of full-blown depression.Continue reading “Rising up from the ash”

People will criticize your dreams, Layer doubt and uncertainty on your consciousness Because they don’t understand The intensity and ferocity of your fire, With its red passion, Aggressively orange desire, And burning yellow optimism, Your fire, your eternal, internal warmth, With its propensity to spread, to expand. They’ll approach the ladder you’re steadily climbing AndContinue reading

Coping Kit

Standing in my own way (?)

She wanted me to know that she wasn’t frustrated with me, that lots of people who see her have some type of roadblock (usually maladaptive behaviors, or repeatedly putting themselves in bad situations) that stop them from being the best version of themselves or the most mentally stable they can be.Β  But like, she explainedContinue reading “Standing in my own way (?)”