I was MIA after a major episode about a month ago, but I’m back at it, yay!

It was as intense and as terrible as ever…but it passed and I’m still here. I used the time right after things calmed down to really think about how to better deal with it all next time (because as of right now, I’m still anxious about the very-real probably-inevitable next time).  I make myself aContinue reading “I was MIA after a major episode about a month ago, but I’m back at it, yay!”

“Isn’t it inevitable?” I cried out for the billionth time that day, or maybe it was night, I wasn’t sure because the two were blending together, bleeding into one another in a mess of insomnia and pain and fits of tormented anguish that seemed to never end. “It’s going to happen eventually.  I have noContinue reading

Graphic opening sentence, but tell me if you get what I’m trying to say here!

If I blew my skull open, splattered my brain onto the blank wall behind me, let it drip down into pools that echoed my former consciousness, I wonder what it would look like. I bet there would be glitter there. From the excitement I hold inside of me and from the goodness in my depths.Continue reading “Graphic opening sentence, but tell me if you get what I’m trying to say here!”

The Incredible Hulk: what my favorite superhero taught me about myself (& other lessons)

In my high school, once you got to eleventh or twelfth grade, certain students were eligible to take part in something called Project Adventure instead of going through with the regular phys ed curriculum.  Mr. Dooley was the teacher and he was cool. He tried his hardest to empower each of the few students whoContinue reading “The Incredible Hulk: what my favorite superhero taught me about myself (& other lessons)”

Bipolar Progression: A Retelling of My Moods

I dunno what to call this thing. That isn’t my favorite name up there, but whatever haha, you’ll get the point. It’s about how it all progressed, so I guess the name, although boring, works. I didn’t really title it to begin with, so whatever. This is the first real WRITING that I showed myContinue reading “Bipolar Progression: A Retelling of My Moods”

What makes me MAD (and why I strive to be an “Emotional Robin Hood”)

I’ve been planning this post since yesterday morning, since I was sitting in my therapist’s office talking about work and getting angry and then talking about whatever other stuff and getting angry.  My therapist pointed out what types of things seemed to be making me feel that way, that fiercely passionate way.  We talked aboutContinue reading “What makes me MAD (and why I strive to be an “Emotional Robin Hood”)”

Snowy Saturdays mean coffee and writing (especially when I’m off from work)

Good morning, internet! I slept late today (which for me is until like 7:30) and woke up to snow. It’s a gray day, which makes the snow seem far less pretty and exciting. I mean, I don’t loveeee snow to begin with; I hate being cold, I have no tolerance for it. But when itContinue reading “Snowy Saturdays mean coffee and writing (especially when I’m off from work)”