I donโt know if Iโm in a bad mood or not. I feel shitty. Mopey. But not depressed. The super fucking confusing to me. And upsetting. But itโs manageable. But itโs annoying and I donโt like it. But it isnโt paralyzing me. Why is existing still something I have to feel guilty about? Iโm confused. This period of my life is just uncertainty. Now that the other chaos has subsided, the uncertainty Iโve always been plagued with can be front and fucking center. Itโs fine. Iโm just off and blah and yucky. I canโt focus, either. Which doesnโt fucking help. But anyway.
||Coffee enthusiast, lover of books, Disney fanatic, planner addict. I like inspirational quotes, stationary and pens and stickers, taking/saving pictures of things that make me happy, and writing about nonsense. Rainbows are my favorite things. I think tattoos are awesome, and I want to get more. I'm going to publish a book about my having conquered anorexia one day.
|| I am here to properly document the lessons I'm learning as I journey to self-fulfillment. I'm trying to figure out my life, which is proving to be tougher than I thought it would be. But I'm determined to find the positive in this situation. And I will not settle for anything less than happiness and success.
|| It takes rain to make a rainbow!
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I totally get this. It’s almost as if you’re not depressed enough to be depressed. Dysthymia, perhaps? Anyway, wishing you the best regardless.
Definitely. Like I donโt wanna call this depression bc it doesnโt do justice good how absolutely incomprehensibly terrible Iโve felt in the past. But this still sucks lol.
Thanks my friend!! ๐
I totally get this. It’s almost as if you’re not depressed enough to be depressed. Dysthymia, perhaps? Anyway, wishing you the best regardless.
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Definitely. Like I donโt wanna call this depression bc it doesnโt do justice good how absolutely incomprehensibly terrible Iโve felt in the past. But this still sucks lol.
Thanks my friend!! ๐
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