I’ve been watching YouTube videos a lot lately. A habit that started out by me using it as background noise (I’d literally search “Disney World area loop music” and just listen to it while working and pretend I’m at the parks, ahhhh). And then I discovered guided meditations and positive affirmations and all that. The ASMR videos are cool too. But like, YouTubers are a thing now. A huge thing, actually. I’m pretty sure it’s mostly a thing for the youngsters of today’s world, so I feel kinda silly getting sucked into that world at 28 (even though someone literally told me that another group of people she knows asked “why isn’t she in school” and “does she drive herself here” –AKA, they thought I was 18 years old at most, lmao). Buuuuut there are so many interesting videos to watch. I generally stay in the self-improvement category. And yeah, it’s all these like, put-together looking girls in these minimalistic apartments, and not gonna lie it kinds makes me feel like I’m a shitty adult haha. But the videos fascinate me.
Now, to my actual point: there’s a lot of emphasis on morning routines in that genre of video. A topic I’ve always found interesting, by the way. I remember having this little notebook in fifth or sixth grade (it had black pages so I wrote on it with a purple glitter gel pen…remember those?) and every night I’d write down what I had to or wanted to do the next morning. As if a ten-year-old had so much to fucking remember. Also, it’s an interesting memory because I’m pretty sure it’s indicative of the slew of mental illnesses I’d later develop haha. Anyway, I continued to do the routine thing through high school. In my anorexic high school days I had a fairly rigid morning routine (the whole day was routine, actually, scheduled pretty much minute to minute…like I said, hello mental illness!).
I’m rambling. Surprise. Moving on, though…
Nowadays I try and stick to a specific set of steps after waking up. Because it’s apparently good for us bipolars, with our disrupted cycles, sleep patterns, body clocks, and circadian rhythms, to keep external things in check. Makes sense. Keeping everything as routine and structured as possible minimizes external chaos (we have enough internal chaos). Minimizes anxiety. In other words, since we need all the help we can get, might as well help ourselves that way.
Routines are also helpful in that they make us more efficient, saves time (which is such a valuable commodity), allows us to build better habits, and gives us more mental space by reducing how many decisions we have to make (I can’t be the only bipolar person who fuckin’ sucks at making decisions). Damn, that sentence was so research-papery. Whatever.
Okay, before I continueeee, allow me to reveal to all three of you who might be reading this what my mornings actually look like:
I wake up around 6 or 7. Like, every day. I just spring awake at that time usually, and even if I have to kinda urge myself out from under the covers, I like getting up early. So I make myself. Mornings are full of promise and possibility and coffee. Gotta savor the good shit, amiright?
Then I hafta immediately take my meds, otherwise GUESS WHAT, I ain’t gonna. Swallow three pills. Boom. Finish the glass of water. Take some more supplements (calcium, fish oil, magnesium, passionflower extract which btw is amazing for anxiety reduction, etc). And right after all that, I record my sleep, meds and supplements, and moods in some of my many mood-tracking apps (mainly Daylio and eMoods, both of which I suggest you download).
Moving into the bathroom. Wash my face. Brush my teeth and listerine the shit outta my mouth to remove that chalky disgusting med taste away. Do my hair. Bedroom. Get dressed in the outfit I laid out last night because I’m anal about that. Put on makeup and earrings if I feel so inclined.
I might stretch or something. Ya know. Limber up. Try to get all nice and bendy. And because I’m having a “fun little throwback to the eating disorder of my youth,” I’ve been doing crunches and pushups, because doesn’t that sound fun.
Oh, and I try to take conscious breaths before I throw myself into the land of social media and journaling and all that nonsense. Inhale and exhale. I struggle with that, dunno if any of you do too?).
Anddddd who could forget coffee. Gotta get that coffee. And enjoy every damn sip. I’d love to tell you I do the whole mindful drinking thing, but eh, I can only do so much good for myself hahaha.
Okay, right. That’s what I do in the morning, and I actually do think it sets me up for success. All the hip YouTubers say what you do in the morning matters (there are literally tons of videos about it, go find some fun ones if you want).
I dunno why I felt the need to share this information with all of you readers (all three of you…I am not a very popular blog, I should proooobably work on growing this thing if I wanan be the writer I was born to be, huh?), but I had fun writing it, so. Yeah. Morning routines 🙂